NYC Diary #34
MONDAY
7:24 a.m. I skip my run and jerk off then sit in bed and think about making a book trailer for Ecstasy. I made one for my first book, Begging for It. In one night. Using archival footage of New York and porn and short films my friend R took of me in Paris in 2010. I used this song called Love Love Love by the Feminine Complex which is this obscure girl group (I think from Michigan) that never made it as Motown stars but they are so good. I also used stills from Andy Warhol’s Blowjob which will now be the cover of Ecstasy so it feels real full circle.
I feel incredibly self-referential these days because everyone else is kind of boring tbh so I decide I’m going to make a book trailer for Ecstasy and use archival footage of Miami in the 50s and 60s and 90s (especially) spliced up with close ups of me making out with all of my friends. I did this back in 2014 for the trailer for Nightcall. I love making little trailers. I was a Film major in college. And I loved the production aspect, not the theory part.
So I decide I’m going to start compiling footage of me and my friends making out in bars and in our apartments and on the street, etc. And I’m probably gonna put a black bar over their eyes so they feel more comfortable and so no one knows who they are lol. But maybe I won’t.
I need enough of them to make it 5 minutes (because I’m going to use Madonna’s Erotica (instrumental) as the soundtrack), which is tough, since the Begging for It trailer was just under 2 minutes. So I’m going to do this weird thing, like I did with Night Call, and just open it up to strangers—who want to make out with me, I guess.
The entire idea kind of turns me on and gives me life. Ecstasy was mostly written in Miami when I was hating New York and really happy writing and running and doing drugs there.
Anyway. Here is the Begging for It trailer. I was a baby. It was 2010 and 2011 and 2012 and I made it in 2013 when the book came out. I miss those days. Even though it was such a struggle to pay my rent because my nonprofit job literally paid me like 38k lmao.